Undone.

Bolivia, what have you done to me?

I am undone. My heart is broken in such a beautiful and unnatural way.

While watching a movie or a tv show with a scene on adoption, I am instantly undone.

I think of my little girl calling me "mama" at an orphanage. I remember leaving her with her big, questioning brown eyes. I can't shake it. My arms ache to hold her again.

Bolivia, you messed me up. I am not the same girl I was before I met you. It has been weeks and weeks since I was standing on your soil, holding your babies, feeding your homeless, and loving your street kids.

You are written on my heart. I can't erase you from my mind. You changed me. There is no denying it.

I close my eyes, and it all rushes back.

My heart is with you, beautiful Bolivia. 

I prayed and prayed for a broken heart and Jesus' eyes. I got both.

Life is hard when your heart is elsewhere.

Praying for the people of Bolivia.

Dreaming BIG dreams tonight.

Love, M

Song of the moment:

Christy Nockles -Sing Along

From babies hidden in the shadows
To the cities shining bright
There are captives weeping
Far from sight
For every doorway has a story
And some are holding back the cries
But there is One who hears at the night

Great God
Wrap Your arms around this world tonight
Around the world tonight
And when You hear our cries
Sing through the night
So we can join in Your song
And sing along We'll sing along

From the farthest corners of the earth
Still His mercy reaches
Even to the pain we cannot see
And even through the darkness
There's a promise that will keep us
There is One who came to set us free

Great God
Wrap Your arms around this world tonight
Around the world tonight
And when You hear our cries
Sing through the night
So we can join in Your song
And sing along We'll sing along

So let Your song rise
And fill up the earth
Let Your hope ring out
Let Your heart be heard