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Friday, May 22, 2015

It has been a rough week. 

Nothing dramatic or significant occurred. 

There was just a lot of little things. 

A nasty allergy-flu-cold hybrid took over my body, and left me beyond exhausted. 

I didn't meet my mileage goals at all this week or last. 

I've been mourning broken and lost friendships. 

Loneliness has taken over my household, and has left me longing. 

Lack of consistent income has created a bit of stress. 

My home is a disaster zone, and I don't even care. 

And I'm over here, just wanting a nap, and to fast forward this season. 

But tonight. 

I went to a fundraiser for a dear family. They are adopting a daughter this summer. I believe in what they are doing, and am so excited for them. 

I really believe adoption is God's heart. 

One of my good friends and I went to eat after. We talked, and it was good. On the way home, she had me read some verses that God had shown her earlier. 

Isn't it beautiful when God's Word just comes alive? 

I whined a bit about my week, and she just answered with, "let's pray."

So we just sat there, in my driveway, and just talked to a real God. We marveled, and thanked Him for His goodness, and that He chose us. We giggled and sang about how overwhelming His love is for us. And we just were amazed at who He is. 

Tonight, I am resting in the beauty of "I am Yours, and You are mine." 

Life feels a bit messy right now. 

But He is so good. And His love is gloriously overwhelming. 

And right now, that's more than enough. 

M. 


Thursday, April 2, 2015

13 reasons. 13 miles.

Okay. So I'm probably insane. I just signed up for a half marathon. It is six months from now, and I'm actually pretty excited. 
My current training plan is to walk most of my miles, with some spurts of running, cross train with spin classes, and practice a lot of yoga. I do not have high ambitions of running the entire thing. I plan on walking most, but I would like to run a small chunk of it. 

For the last 4 weeks, I have been getting 10 miles in per week. I have had a couple of longer walks (7.08 and 5.6 miles), and have been fine during and after. I figure if I can walk seven miles with no issues six months out, I can get to where I need to be when I need to be there. 

I will need a lot of encouragement and prayer.

But I really think I can do this. 
Longest so far. 

Nighttime walk with safety vest, pearls, red lips, and a cold friend. 

Crossing the new bridge in my sweet little town. 



Here are my current top 13 reasons for completing 13.1 miles. 

13. I have always been told I'm not athletic, and could never do something like this, and I want to prove that wrong. 

12. I know I lack self discipline in pretty much all areas of life right now, and I know being on a strict training schedule would change that. 

11. I have a super cute, red dress (among a few other things) that I really want to wear, but they are just a bit too small. 

10. With my job ending, and a very open and unplanned next season of life, I want to have a purpose over the next few months. 

09. I don't want to sit in front of the tv and binge watch tv shows because I'm upset, I want to move my body towards a goal.  

08. I want to be healthy and have healthy habits. 

07. I need to have small, obtainable goals in my life. This would give me daily, weekly, monthly, and six month goals. 

06. I think I may be strong, but I want to know that I really am strong. 

05. Most days I think I'm insane and stupid for thinking I can do this, and I want to prove myself wrong. 

04. I need something to look forward to. 

03. I know myself enough that I need to do things on my terms, in my timing, and I think this is it, and this is the time. 

02. I just want to cross that finish line. 

01. Completing a half marathon has been on my secret bucket list for over 5 years, and now I can't wait to actually cross it off the list. 

Here comes another wild adventure. I'm terrified and excited all at once.  

Love, M

What I'm reading.

Let me start off by saying, I have a problem. I know. I am a huge book nerd. I always have multiple books going at once. I love reading so much, I redid my home to have a reading nook, right at the heart of it. I have too many books. I am always asking for book suggestions, and always giving them. Most moments of the day, I can be found with at least one book on me. It's a serious issue. I bring one (or more) to every place I go. I have a cart I moved into my reading corner. Every day I keep adding more books to the shelves. It is completely full now. I have so many that I want to read, need to read for the second time, and a handful that feel like home, so I read them so many times, I have them memorized. I have a problem. 

So here is a list of what I'm reading now. Because I am in the process of losing my job, and suddenly have found myself with much more free time than I'm used to, the list is a bit longer than normal. Also. Because of my random life currently, some are read every hour, and some just every few days. There is no rhyme or reason to the madness. 

For the Love: Fighting for Grace in a World of Impossible Standards -Jen Hatmaker 

I am apart of Jen's Launch Team, so I get to read the book early, and I am almost done. And I am IN LOVE. I really think every woman needs to read this. I have laughed so hard that I cried, I have cried because words were so full of truth, and I have shouted "Yes!" so many times, I'm sure my neighbors think I'm nuts. There's nuggets about fashion, parenting, marriage, growing up, cooking, loving people, how not to be churchy, permission to say no sometimes, and just life. Y'all. This is pure book gold. It doesn't get released to the public until August, but y'all need to run and get this the very second it comes out. "Be kind. Be you. Love Jesus. That's about it. Everything else will fall into place." 

•Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, Not Food -Lysa Terkeurest 

I am reading this with my dearest friend, S. The last few weeks we have really been trying to be each other's accountability partners in this getting healthy journey. We are reading a few chapters, and then getting together to discuss them together. "Truth is powerful. The more saturated we are with truth, the more powerful we'll be in resisting our temptations. And the more we'll naturally direct our cravings where they should be directed- to the Author of all truth." 

Every Bitter Thing Is Sweet: Tasting the Goodness of God in All Things -Sara Hagerty 

One of my dear friends came over the night. She bought me dinner, and sat with me as I cried. I shared how I feel like my dreams are dying. That's the honest truth. The last few weeks have been really hard. She then shared about how this book changed her thinking when she was in a season of struggle. She shared snippets of the book, and while on my couch, went onto amazon, and ordered the book for me. It showed up on my front porch today, and I can't wait to start reading it. I need a real reminder of His faithfulness right now. 


Runner's World Big Book of Marathon and Half Marathon Training: Winning Stategies, Inspiring Stories, and the Ultimate Training Tools 

I have only opened this twice. So I can't really give much of an opinion yet. This is a suggestion from a friend. More to come about this subject soon! 


The Little Prince -Antoine de Saint ExupĂ©ry 

This is a suggestion from my best friend in Japan. This is my nightstand book. I love reading a few pages of this before bed. It is such a delightful story. My best friend and I are (slowly but surely) reading this together. Because we're so far away from each other, I love that we are reading the same thing at the same time. It keeps us connected.  

Love Does: Discover a Secret Incredible Life in an Ordinary World -Bob Goff 

This book. Ahhhhhhmazing. I feel like Bob and I could be good friends. He lives his life full of whimsy, spontaneity, passion, and love. The stories he tells reminds me of my own quirky tales. He just loves people, just like Jesus does. I just want a life like that. This book has put my highlighters and pens to the test. It is so marked up, because it's just that good. 

The Right One: How to Successfully Date and Marry the Right Person -Jimmy Evans and Frank Martin 

First off. The forward is by Kari Jobe, who is my favorite. I have read SO MANY books on being single/finding the right person/getting married, and most have just missed the mark. This one is so good. Trust me. If you're not married, I recommend reading this one. 

Living Beyond Yourself: Exploring the Fruit of the Spirit - Beth Moore

I am doing this study with a group of women from my church. Beth's teaching is so on point. Every week it's just so good, and so full of truth. Also. I apparently can't drink coffee and study in bed without making a mess. ��


The Bible: Isaiah

Isaiah is one of my favorite books. I'm just in love with the passion of this book. Whenever I feel stuck in life, I tend to find myself reading chapter 61 over and over. "The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners..."

Dancing for the Devil: One Woman's Dramatic and Divine Rescue from the Sex Industry- Anny Donewald 

I have heard Anny tell bits of her story in person. It's incredible. I have such a heart for victims of human trafficking and injustice, so I have read many books on the subject in the last few years. This one is one of my favorites. It's just such a great reminder that God can use even the darkest and dirtiest stories and pasts for His glory. 


What are you reading? Have you read any of my current reads? What are your suggestions for my next season of reading? 

Love, M. 



  


Friday, March 20, 2015

Friday Roundup.

It is Friday. And the first day of spring. Bless. We have made it. Let the hallelujah chorus commence. 

•What am I wearing the first day of spring? Overalls and flower crowns of course. Y'all. Overalls. Are. So. Comfy. 

•I have been chosen to help launch Jen Hatmaker's new book, "For The Love: fighting for grace in a world of impossible standards". This means I get to read the book months before it is actually released, I can write an endorsement that will *hopefully* be picked to be published in the book, I get to share about the book in my sphere of influence, and I get to be apart of an incredible group of women who are also on the launch team. Seriously. I have felt so encouraged and loved by these women. It is so good. You can preorder the book here: http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/0718031822/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?qid=1426856537&sr=8-1&pi=V192198896_AA75&keywords=for+the+love+jen+hatmaker

•I have been trying to walk/slow run 10 miles/week. I did great last week. This week has been a lil rough. My allergies are driving me nuts, and I prefer to walk outside. I have got to kick it up today and tomorrow to reach my goal. But I really am liking setting small, obtainable goals for myself. When I'm on the treadmill at the gym, and I'm watching a show, I walk the whole time the show is on, and I try to run during all of the commercials. I'm getting better. But I despise when an extra commercial sneaks in. 

•I rearranged my living room this week. I think in this season of chaos and change, I just wanted a fresh start at home. So I decided to play up my whimsical nature, and now I have a canopied reading nook, right in the corner of my living room. I'm also repurposing my hope chest as more seating, and moved the couches in a way that they have never been configured before. I may change it all back next month. But for now, I love it. It feels so young and carefree. 

•This song. We sang it at church a few weeks ago, and the words were so powerful, I looked it up as soon as I got home, and now have been listening to it a few times a day. "Here at Your feet, I lay my future down. All of my dreams, I give to You now. I find peace." 

•The last two weeks have been hard. Really hard. (http://adventureintheunknown.blogspot.com/2015/03/peace.html?m=1) But I have been so encouraged by such incredible friends. One friend in particular texted or called me five or six times in a day, just to share a scripture, let me know she was praying for me, point me back to Jesus, tell me she was listening to a song and thought of me, and that she just supported me. It really is the best to have people in your corner. 

•shamrock shakes. Heaven help me. Why are these SO GOOD?! I normally will find any excuse to grab one. But this season, I only had 2. One the day they came out, and one on St. Patrick's Day. I wonder if they taste so good, because they are only available for such a small window. I don't know y'all. But I just want them all the time. Why can't they be good for you? My protien shakes do not taste like that. �� 

Happy first day of spring. Love, M. 
 

Thursday, March 19, 2015

Peace.

The last couple of months have been the craziest of emotional roller coaster rides. I don't particularly enjoy roller coasters in general, and I certainly detest the emotional kind. And despite my best wishes, I think I'm still on the ride. 

Long story long. 

I have been nannying for the same family for five years now, and it has come to the point that I have been dreading since day one, it's time to move on. Those babies feel like my own. I have learned to love in ways I didn't know we're possible. It has been an incredible ride, and honestly, I believe the best thing I have ever done. 

Because that job is ending soon (down to single digits), I must get a new job. I have searched a little via word of mouth, and via the internet. But I kept hearing God's voice tell me to "rest and wait on Him".

People thought I was nuts for waiting. Somedays, I thought I was nuts for waiting. 

One day I got an email to meet with a lady for a job interview. I knew her organization, because she had shared with me her dreams and passions over coffee, a few months before. 

Immediately I was tickled pink. It was my dream job! Be in South America, love girls, have sewing circles, be home for part of the year, do something about human trafficking, be a voice for those who do not have one. Ah. It was everything. And more. 

Two days before I received the official job offer, I started feeling unrest, and the Holy Spirit quietly whispered to me "this isn't for you". I was a mess. I received the official offer, and instantly, I heard His voice loud and clear, "Girl, this isn't for you.". I was sick to my stomach. I have never been so conflicted over a decision before. It was everything I wanted. It was in the right timing. I emailed her asking for additional days to pray over the situation. I had friends come over, and we got on our knees, just begging for clarity and peace. I was so distraught. 

It's crazy to need a job, be offered your dream job, and turn it down, only to still be jobless. I know. I get that. 

It took me four days to fully come to the answer I had known for a week. For whatever reason, this wasn't for me. And above anything, I just wanted to walk in peace. Once I made my decision, I had peace. I declined the offer, and it was not my favorite thing I've ever done. But I had peace.  

This week is a new week, and things haven't been easy. The enemy has been taunting me over my decision. People I love dearly have been reminding me that "I need a job, and soon." I have doubted my decision, and then struggled with the fact that I was doubting. I'm over emotional. It's been a rough few days.

Today I was putting books away, and I happened to open one, and start glancing through the intro. It is written by Kari Jobe. 

She was sharing about how she dating a great guy, and everything seemed perfect, but she didn't have peace from the Holy Spirit. She went on to share how important that peace was. I know she is referring to marriage, but I believe it works in all areas. I want that peace from the Holy Spirit in all things I do. 

I am so thankful I stumbled across that this morning. It was like water to my tired soul. I just sat on the floor, crying. I know I made the right decision. 


Please pray for me in the uncomfortable season of transition. I really do need a job, and selfishly, I would prefer it to be doing something that makes my heart beat with purpose. 

Thanks for letting me share the unglamorous parts of me. I'm kinda just a hot mess. And I just want to follow Jesus. 

Love ya. M. 









Friday, January 30, 2015

Friday Favorites

•Yes! This is my daily struggle! 

•When people believe in what you're doing, and donate awesome things. ❤️ I'm helping put on and decorate for a Valentine's Day luncheon for some women in Pontiac, and have been overwhelmed by people's generosity! Seriously, I was given money back at an estate sale, and ended up with glass jars for free! I also was given the most beautiful "log slices" (seriously, there must be a prettier way to say that!). I can't wait to use them for centerpieces. 

•This Album. I'm obsessed. It's been on repeat for the last seven days. Do yourself a favor and listen to it! (My current favorites are Psalm 130 & Only In You.) 

•Winter sunrises. God just outdoes Himself day after day. 

• Dove Chocolates. These are one of my favorite things ever. I have had them in a bag in almost every airport and country I have ever traveled to. I love the cute sayings on the inside of wrappers, and they taste amazing. 
 

•This shirt. It's so soft and cozy, perfect for sleeping, lounging around, or running errands around town. I love Old Navy. 
http://m.oldnavy.gap.com/product.html?dn=op9787110120004&cid=1021772&pid=9787110120004&locale=en_US 

•Brunch dates with best friends. Coffee. Muffins. Laughs. Love. 

Happy weekend. Michelle. 

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Friday Favorites.

•Gilmore Girls is my favorite tv show ever. I'm obsessed. I have seen every episode more times than I should probably admit. I recently discovered a fan fiction website that gives us three more whole seasons! I'm surprised at how much I am enjoying reading it, and how well it holds to the intregrity of the show and the characters. 
http://virtualgilmore.squarepins.org/index.php

•I love when the numbers on the odometer are the same. 

• I have been really into over sized, cozy sweaters with leggings or skinny jeans. Winter clothing can be both cute and effortless. My latest find is from the Salvation Army. (The best place for unique treasures!) I love this black sweater with gold flecks. Also. I'm really digging my short hair lately. 

• Gold Spray Paint. 
I. Just. Can't. Stop. (did y'all know you can paint Xmas lights?!)

•My house was feeling a little sad after I took down my Christmas tree, so I put up "just because" decorations. 

• This is my life. I love to twirl around in circles, daydream, drink milk straight out of the carton, and I say the word "murder" multiple times on first dates. It is what it is. 

• I love that my Auntie is halfway done with chemo, and her white and red blood cell counts are the best they've been this whole journey. Praying to hear that sweet word, "remission". 

• I am loving shoveling my sidewalk lately. That's probably weird, right? I think I shoveled and salted 4x this week, and every time with a smile and a song. I'm just thankful the snow has been minimal over all this winter. I don't mind a few inches once in a while. It kinda looks pretty and clean. I have discovered though, that I completely despise clearing the snow off my car. 

Love, M