He's writing a beautiful story, I just know it. 

All of this uncertainty and unknown will make sense soon. The tears will no longer be tears of fear and worry, but will soon be tears of joy and amazement. 

But for now, this chapter keeps on going, I see no end in sight. 

More uncertainty means more trusting in Jesus. 

It's getting harder. I feel like it should be easier, I've seen Him provide so many times, I should have bigger faith. But tonight, my faith is little. It's barely there. 

But Jesus said, "Just have the faith the size of a mustard seed, and you can move mountains." 

So with my little tiny seed of faith, I say, I believe that He has a plan. I believe that He is working all of this chaos for my good, and His glory. And I will trust Him. 

Today brought many tears. Many, many tears. I thought I had so many things figured out finanicially, and with a few phone calls and texts, everything came crashing down. 

I have things figured out in two categories. "What I need to take care of before I go to Texas" and "What I need to take care of when I get home to Michigan." Both categories had plans. And both plans failed today. 

So I am now at a place where I just need Jesus to show up. In a really big way. 

All day today, I've just wanted to rush and fast forward to the next and the better. I want a steady income and purpose right now, in this season. This uncertainty and unknown is getting old, and fast. 

But tonight, after crying many tears, and resting in His arms a bit, I have come to realize, this part of the story is just as beautiful as the big provision part on the other side. Without this part, the faithfulness wouldn't seem so incredible. Because I'm at a place of needing Him so greatly, and not being able to take care of this on my own, it just gives Him all the glory when things do come together.

So. I will rest in Him. I will believe He has a plan, and that I'm part of that. 

I don't know what all this looks like. But I know I have a loving God who is aware of my needs and my desires. 

I'm excited to see this new season unfold. Because it just can't be like this forever, right? 

M